Doubt : The origins. Part 1.

" Doctor, do you believe that there can be a God as described by these Christians? "

"I am a doctor, not a priest. "

"Huh.. I think it's hard to believe in such a God as they describe.. "

"You are not convinced by the evidence for such a God, I think."

"Shaw!!! Surely you know better than that Doctor. Do you think the.."

"I confess I was only amusing myself when I said that.. you must Forgive me."

"Oh good. Forgiveness.. You see Doctor, this is what I am talking about.
Christians confess a God who is all-powerful.
They say He constructed the whole of the Universe, both what we can see and cannot.
They believe that He cant be seen, He wont intervene in the affairs of His creation, yet He came to live amongst humankind as a Person.
They believe Jesus was that person. They also believe that Jesus let people kill him so as to achieve a means of Forgiveness for all who would want to believe in him to be God incarnate.

And then of course, he rose from the dead, just as he predicted. CAN YOU BEAT THAT Doctor!"

"Yes, I can beat that. I am an alien from the star Betelgeuse."

"Haha! Doctor, dont you see? How can anyone picture the image of an invisible, non-intervening, never-outdone, Knows-your-thoughts-before-you-can-think-em God to be the image of a human, Jesus, worked miracles,wise beyond hypocrisy,loving,crucified on a hill?"

"What seems to be the problem in that ? All the evidence that we discussed, the archaeology, the irrefutable eye-witnesses in the New Testament,the Resurrection of Jesus.."

"NO NO NO! I TOLD you NOT to talk about that Doctor! I TOLD you DAMMIT.."

"You are pointing a gun at me."

"I.. NO ! NO MORE TALK ABOUT EVIDENCE, I SAY DOCTOR..!! "

"Put the gun back . You will hurt yourself. "

"Ok. Fine. ok.. allright...ok..
You think my problem is the evidence?
My problem is something else. I want to believe.. yet I cant believe.
Its a risk for me, this God-thing. If I believe Him, and if He lets me down.."

"You are sure He will let you down? That's faith."

"Dont interrupt me Doctor. Please. I am not a prisoner of evidence. I am a prisoner of something, someone else."

"Would you love to change yourself and your ways of living,at the cost of pain, if this God of yours tells you to change?"

" Huh..What did you say..?"