The Moment of Unbelief.

Sam was truly delighted that he had stumbled about the exact Moment of Unbelief in his thoughts.

That was because the stream of thoughts is almost always so uniformly red with blood, that it used to be next to impossible to spot the injured animal that fell into the crystal-clear stream and turned it red with it's blood. The injured animal is what Sam calls his specific doubt,of course.

Sam was listening to Usha talk joyously about the sacrifice of Isaac by Abraham,who had gone about the attempt to sacrifice his only son at the command of his God.

Sam listened, as Usha explained,with a vicarious sadness, how Abraham must have felt when He received the command from God, to sacrifice the very son God had promised him so many years ago? What would have Abraham been thinking at this juncture?

* "This is NOT happening! How can i sacrifice my ONLY son? And He is the promised child. What about Your promise then, huh? YOU Promised me. Why are you harming me.. Are YOU, oh good One, trying to make fun of me and my family? And what will Sarah say? Will she be able to say anything if i do this? This is NOT happening God."

But if Abraham was thinking all this, he would not have proceeded with taking young Isaac with him, on the pretext of a journey.
But he did go. Abraham did go ,whether he felt like it or not.
And we are at a complete loss as to what Abraham was thinking, while he was journeying with a servant and Isaac,to that mountain of sacrifice.

Abraham wisely asked the servant to stay at a distance from the hill where they were to offer the sacrifice.
Had the servant seen Abraham beginning to tie up Isaac at the altar, he would have gone berserk ("i thought so when we started off from Mesopotamia;this guy was mentally challenged right from the beginning!
'Leave the Boy ALONE, you FREAK ' ! ")

This is the same Abraham who left his folks back in Ur,a place in Mesopotamia,just because God had asked him to.
He had no clue what was gonna happen out there.

Now,he was gonna kill his own son,and offer him to God. Just because God had asked him to.
And he had no clue what was gonna happen out here.

As Usha spoke, with wonder at her own words, Sam heard her talk of what was going through Isaac's heart. The boy,seeing no goat for the sacrifice, wondered aloud to his father- "Abba, where is the goat for our sacrifice to the LORD?"

Sam didnt know if anyone on this earth has ever imagined Abraham's reply to his son (What was harder to imagine could be- HOW on earth did Abraham utter ANYTHING at all?)

- "God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son."
(Taken from the Book of Genesis chapter 22,Verse 8 ,the Bible)

And that was the Point of Unbelief. Sam had caught it by the horns. Almost.
The point of tears building up to burst. But they didnt burst within Sam. Why Sam. Why?

The point where Sam heard and knew it now for himself- God always wanted good. Even out of all the evil around them all. God still wanted good. He was NOT a bad-heart.

And when Abraham swung up the knife to thrust it into the Promised son called Isaac, (oh heaven must have cried- Holy, Holy..!)
The angel appeared .. "Abraham, buddy NOO ! Dont..!"
(" i just cant believe that. ")
A ram was found caught in the bushes by it's thorns..
(" i wont[did Sam say-he WONT believe that story in History?].. i wont believe it. ")

The ram was offered to the LORD. Abraham boy, your LORD did provide.
("it never happened.")
What about Sam's LORD? When has he provided or not provided? And how did it matter or not matter to Sam?

Usha was glad, almost euphoric when she finished telling the story of Isaac's sacrifice. She must have believed it to tell it.

Sam's barriers were up. Some of his heart-land had been watered by Heaven's rains. Some of his heart-land he hid away from the rains.

And Sam walked away, very bittersweet. Very bitter. Very Sweet.

Isaac was spared. To the atheist, the ram spared Isaac. Or still better,like Sam thought - it never happened. So far, so good.

By the way, the name Isaac means something like - "he laughed".
Why was that? Because his dad and mom had laughed when Someone promised them a child.

That's another story. Hey Sam. You wanna listen to this one?